Sunny Weather :)

Haven't blogged in AGES...

I kept thinking about it, but I was always either too lazy or too busy, it varied :P But tonight is a sleepless night (yet again), and since both me and my SO have insomnia atm, we've decided to get up and chill here in the kitchen with our laptops, drinking hot chocolate. Early morning is the perfect time for blog writing anyway :)

I normally post all my woes about my health or violent emotional turbulence lol, but I actually have nothing to bitch about, I'm happy and I feel emotionally good! :) Exams have finished, yay! Well okay, technically I only had one exam, but it involved a lot of stressful last-minute study-cramming - especially since my epically built-up emotional crisis, break-down and hospitalisation *rolls eyes* omg I'm so bored of myself, seriously. But I think I passed the exam at least, and I was proud to get back a good mark for a previous lab report for pharmacology (85%), although I was skeptical as to whether the lecturer was just being nice by giving me a good mark considering that I was mad, etc.

BUT anyway, I've finished pharmacology!! Just two units to go until my degree is done: a physiology unit and an advanced neuroscience unit. The neuro one sounds a bit scary, but watching brains float around in liquid has a strange allure to it. Just kidding, but I really am interested in neuroscience, I enjoyed the introductory unit I did.

I just looked at my fingers tapping on the computer keyboard, and I just thought how weird fingers are. Especially mine, like mine are kind of manly :/ Bony knuckles and wide fingernails bitten to the quick. That reminds me, my SO and I are going to our University's Music Students ball tomorrow night yippee!! But I don't have any elbow length gloves - sort of wanted to cover the SH scars on my arms. Although actually they've healed really good considering. I always heal fast, pretty awesomely fast actually. I mean sure there are heaaaps of horizontal lines all over the underside of my forearms, but they don't stand out majorly unless I exposed my arm clearly and someone was looking straight at it, kind of thing. I don't know where to get gloves from, maybe I can find somewhere open this morning? Otherwise, its not that big a deal, I don't think anyone really gives a sh*t :D

I do need to get some of those chicken-fillet sticky bras :P because my dress is quite low-cut at the back. Though I'm well-covered at the front, the dress is quite tight-fitting so I hope I don't look too flat-chested LOL! I've got my hair an ash-blond colour atm which I quite like too, although I wish I could get it more SILVER :P It's nice having my ball outfit as my main problem right now! :D

(my hair)

Next week my SO and I are also going on tour (to a country town lol) with our uni chapel choir, which should be fun! One night is a "light-music" night, and I opted to sing "Stormy Weather" while A. accompanies my on guitar XD Should be fun !! I can totally get my Ella Fitzgerald onnnn!!

Well I've promised myself to keep up a more regular blog, writing is good!! So, until next time, which shall be soon!

~Tam~

Skeleton Waltz

I wrote this (albeit rather depressing) poem a while ago but I thought it was appropriate around halloween as it sounds kind of eery and goulish! :)

I can't be bothered updating on my current mental state, I'm kind of crazy, we know that, lets leave it that for now.



Skeleton Waltz

Candid decisions are mortal, but I
am a superpower come to life.
Don't judge me, because I am not
human. Cold eyes, teeth buried
in the necks of others. Blood
is thicker than water, and ties are
stronger than ever, when you're dead.
Who's life instead?
I am not a monster. I am not
a walking corpse. Believe me,
through these tears? Pills,
chills and other cheap thrills.
Dancing, flesh-less finger pointed;
every thought and limb disjointed,
hung over from the last life.





Found this picture online from an article:




~Tam~